I'm really far from perfect and have been thinking a lot lately about how I can better myself. I have a pretty good life, but for the past like 8 months I'd say I've been sending out some pretty negative vibes, and that is not who I want to be or how I want people to see me. A couple of months ago I quit a pretty well paying vet tech job because my boss was a fucking psycho and I couldn't get over the dark cloud that followed me from that place (I'm not being over dramatic, the girl who left when i started was put on anti anxiety meds when she left, it was that bad.) I got another job after allowing them to suck another month out of me and though my current job is super boring its heaven on earth compared to the chinese sweat shop that unnamed veterinary clinic turned out to be.
So after a couple of weeks of being a real bitch to my boyfriend (who is fucking wonderful and i love so much) I realized i needed to get the fuck over it and make some changes towards a positive attitude and outlook, I literally could not figure out how. Everything was pissing me off, like everything everything. I love my gym and I would become so irate about the annoying children in the locker room I wanted to cancel my membership.
After Halloween and a weekend of eating like shit and waking up feeling like shit my boyfriend had the brilliant idea to get a ninja and do a cleanse #Brilliant I was pretty whatever to the idea but thought it couldn't hurt so we did. We juiced for two weeks for breakfast and lunch and ate chicken and vegetables for dinner, the extra weight was falling off (this made me exceptionally happy) I lost 15 lbs in two weeks and couldn't have been more elated about it.
Being so empty all the time it was exhausting to even think about lifting weights so I needed to find something else to do. I tried swimming while my boyfriend ran, it was nice for about a week but it got old when I realized I couldn't protect my precious head of hair, and the chlorine was also irritating the fuck out of my skin. Then we found yoga!
I feel like a different person! The anger and negativity seems like it melted out of me, I have a new found love and appreciation for my gym, and I feel better as a person overall. I finally feel like I can be myself again. I'm really excited to move on in my life and finally be able to get out of the ominous hole i was in because it sucked.